Sunday, April 30, 2006
I think i have some feelings hidden inside of me.
I've been thinking more with reasoning than my feelings.
Mayb its jus too hurting to think with my feelings.
I can understand this and understand tt.
But i'm very hurt becoz of this and that.
Jerri said tt i sld feel angry b4.
But i know i have my wrongs so no pt feeling tt way.
Now, these feelings are resurfacing.
And i duno wat to do with them.
Can anyone teach me how to handle them?
forget abt asking mi to forget everything.
It is jus not possible..
Not for me..
butterfly
fantasy at
10:26 PM
fri - -
woke up early in the morn.
went bugis.
slacked.
went sch.
interesting lect. but im still gonna fail it.
went back to bugis.
waited wif ah pek.
ah pek is a damn good listener can!
erm.. after 5 hrs he finally came.
ass! but... he bought mi to meet his friends.
so happy can. 1 look like F4's zai zai, e other look like jay. so cool.
i dun think i saw jay's face. haha.
well... zai zai talks like a parrot.
haha.. went to this pub. the waitress keep 'acttacking' ah wei.
cant stand. stupid. y aim a ugly one? haha.
he had too much to drink. sent him hm first. i din realise the cab doesnt take mastercard until half way to wlds. shit.
oh well.. i still had fun.
Sat - -
Damn tired. Still went to work at the Bank.
So crowded! Saw chee's parents.
But i think i kinda chase them away?
coz it was jus too crowded.. no point q-ing up.
can wait till weekdays lesser ppl.
u noe.. now i haf tt feeling tt im forcing him?
24hrs very diff to gif meh?
like wth? haha. fan jian? mayb.
Work at GV sucks today.
It is jus too crowded. So many ppl... so much food to prepare.
So tired can... feel like meeting him. But he already in the car.
So... i call ah wei. haha.. tt guy console mi till he fall alslp?
wen lin msged mi too.. he gonna quit soon.
my potato leaving le. haha.
made plans to go out again wif ah wei and his friends.
he's showing mi alot of stuff.
no wonder chee wanna play.
i feel like playing myself. haha.
oh yea! let's all play!!
butterfly
fantasy at
2:06 AM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
i jus gif him a call.
He gave mi the usual tone of voice, the kind he knows he's rite so he speaks damn fast and loud.
haha..
oh well...
den i told him im gg to miss my 3 besties in sch.
and realli... the reason why im so sian today is coz of tml.
okok, besides the 600 qns. tml im gg into a whole new class.
im so used to them le. the 3 of them r realli crappers man.
i can jus walk in front of them n listen den start luffing to myself.
im seriously gg to miss you guys.
actually im missing many ppl in my life.
He left, now 3 more leaving... wat's more?
Sometimes, i wonder why do i have the sudden urge to leave sg?
as in overseas trip or OIAP.
oh ya ppl... I might haf a chance to go HK.
but i dun think im gg for the experience, i jus wanna leave.
and yea... shop shop shop wif jac, whose auntie spirit is growing stronger day by day.
opps! :x
One more thing, how many of u actually saw mi cry b4?
as in those face red, tears everywhere kind.
yan lin, that time watching 'a walk to remb' doesnt count.
haha..
butterfly
fantasy at
10:43 PM
attachment finally ended le..
jerri and mi are now offically their part-timers there.
working there is not about the money la..
its coz we are familiar with the surroundings le..
and yup.. we made a few good friends.
as in, those can talk abt anything.
but jerri says i trust ppl too easily.
haha..
mayb, mayb not.
last sems and tis sem is so damn diff can.
firstly, my 3 besties are not wif mi anymore.
but my xiang yi wei ming de jac has all my lectures.
so we can sit and crap tgt.
haha.
2nd, last sems no matter wat difficulty i meet, there's oways sum1 willing to listen and guide mi thru. Now, I can onli seek for advise and decide wat i will do.
3rd, Im so damn bored can. What can i do to enrich my life in sch a lil ar?
But i noe, nx yr ard this time, i will b missing these moments.
oh well... i will worry abt tt when the time comes.
*happy working hard ppl!
butterfly
fantasy at
8:59 PM